Two down, a whole life to go!

The sheer amount of energy that is needed to recover from all that has happened this year, and strengthen and gain movement, is mind boggling. Lately I take a lot of naps and when I wake up I will realize I haven’t moved an inch. Too exhausted to even turn over in my sleep. It’s all for good though.

Yesterday I ventured out for the second time and actually went to work. Although much of my work can be done remotely, I try to, and enjoy, being at the CSA pickups. Everyone was very kind and welcomed me back. I did really well but damn, you never realize how much you use your neck. I’d look up as people approached, lean forward to chat/ask their name, look down at my paperwork, look up, tell them their checked in and gesture to the right or left, depending on the size of their share. Truly simple basic stuff, until you start counting how many times you have moved your neck this way and that way just interacting with one customer. It felt heavenly to be outside though, and talking to people other than my family (no offense, family)! I did prertty well but into my second hour I realized that my body felt like it was as heavy as stone and the pain pill I’d taken was no match for what was started to scream in my back and neck. I gave Ernie a call and summoned him. A particularly kind volunteer got Big Red for me and helped me navigate with my things to Ernie. Sola Gratia really does attract some incredible people.

I’ll admit I was a bit worried again about getting in the house but my new method…four steps, then the magic trunk, swing to the side, rest, use Little Guy to stand up went smotthly. I went to my corner and completely collapsed. I didn’t even sleep well, I think I was overtired, but again, I felt so good about what I’d managed that it was all good.

Today, although I feel terribly guilty about it, I let Ernie go to his cancer treatment by himself. Next time I should be up for it but I just couldn’t swing it given that it appears that things are going along nicely for him.

I’ve done some work and now I may go…yes, you know it…take a nap. I do miss having a cat. I hope Ernie’s ok.

Onward.

Love,
Cynthia

You never can really capture the blue of a Heavenly Blue morning glory.