January 16 2024 Random Notes
Walkers, tears, credit cards and buildings: another day in the Sandwich Life
The walker I use in the house has been driving me nuts. I’ve got to replace it or fix it but it’s one of those things you keep saying you have to do but don’t do it. The other night I grumbled about it to Ernie and he innocently suggested all it needed was a simple fix. I completely lost my temper, listed all the things wrong with it and told him HE should try to use it every time he needed to go somewhere. I got into my bed and cried. And later I realized that it was the first time I had cried over having to use the walker all the time. I cried in the hospital over my frustration with the surgery and that whole process, but I don’t think I’ve ever cried about having to depend on the damn things. I mean I’ve even named them…I’ve truly tried to be positive, make the best of it, etc., etc. I guess I was due. I just hope I haven’t opened the floodgates.
It’s just been one of those weeks. Nothing seems to have gone right.
I am doing pretty well though and I have a couple of friends who have been in the hospital recently, or their loved ones have been, and I know that uncertainty and frustration is overwhelming so I will yet again try to keep this shit in perspective. Some times are easier than other times, though. Some times are easier than other times.
In other notes:
I had a wretched cold but it seemed to depart relatively quickly, although maybe that accounts for my out-of-sortsedness (I gotta say, I like that word).
I’ve lost some paying subscribers but I don’t know how to be anything other than who I am here.
I ordered a new computer (I’m waving 👋 to my credit card). I hate to spend money I don’t have and this one has served me incredibly well but I have asked a lot of it and it’s starting to get very, very tired. I looked into having some work done but it adds up quickly and I’m still going to have an old (in computer years) laptop on my hands. I checked to see what I could get for a trade-in. A whopping $170. No thank you. Ernie will inherit this as it will be fine for going online, etc. It will actually be a treat for him. So, something to look forward to even if I flinch when I think of it.
January heading into February. This is when I need snow to keep my spirits up. God knows I try.
Onward.
Love,
Cynthia
Just wanted to mention about the loss of paid subscribers, I know it’s hard not to take it personally but I’m sure it has more to do with priorities than content. I’ve made the decision to cancel some of my patreon and other paid subscriptions and it doesn’t mean I don’t still love the artist/writer, I just have to do what makes sense for me financially.